today's a wierd day.

camp is empty for some unknown reason.

the residents around my estate became very law-abiding suddenly.
they actually waited at the traffic light with no cars!
not 1, not 2, but a group.

or is it i'm too law-breaking?
CANNOT BE LEH.

....
what's happening?

i'm bored lah.
zz

!@$%^&*(

that makes the 490th post.
and this is the 491th. =/

Back Here
BBMak

Baby set me free from this misery
I can't take it no more
Since you ran away nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for
Here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go

So I told you lies even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
Cuz here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus

And I wonder, are you thinking of me
Cuz I'm thinking of you
And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life?
Cuz here I am so alone
And there's nothing in this world I can do

Chorus to fade

朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人

quoted from kayan. haha.
how true.

good news.

i only ran 1km+ for 2.4 then i no energy already.
i wonder how, i wonder why,
yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky,
but all that i can see,
is just a yellow lemon tree... =/

i can understand if you were to hate me.

i can't decide on something just cause i want to, but something which would be better for us in the long run.

i can only say i'm sorry.

in any case, thanks for the honesty.

passing out soon lo.
9th of apr. then going for OJE.

wanted to blog but didnt know what to blog about.
life's been pretty mono.

wake up, report to camp, come home, msn and wait for time to pass, go sleep.

just ran 3km+ last week and 4.4km today.
think sooner or later will hit 7km.
i wish.

anyway,
spent almost 100bucks this weekend.
reason: FOOD. no regrets! oops. haha



what makes you think an axe can hack off a tree which has grown for years in a single hit?
it's often the simplest logic which people fails to understand.



girl i'm glad that you're moving on.
but i'm afraid i can't do the same.

the smallest gesture, can make you realise stuffs you never did.

early release tmr!

haha. but also 3+. after that go instructor's house visit him.
by then also will end around the same time. oh well

my course will be ending on 9th apr.
how i wish it wouldn't end.
i don't mind being a private drawing a pay an allowance of $400 all my 2 years in this course.
really nice instructors.

but for every start, there's always an end.

You were once my everything
But you left my heart in shattered piece
Disappointment is all i see
Memories is all i'm left with

here comes goodbye.

..
nevermind.
1 year 7months till ORD!
haha

off to bed.

supposedly we'll be getting our half day off this coming fri.
but thanks to our 2IC...

BURNT!
zzz

why are we getting punished for something which isn't our fault?

just came back from camp ytd morning and im going back again now. =/

i wished we could go through everything;
i wished we'd come this far;
i wished i could be the one who will always be there for you;

and now it seems like you've found your special someone.
but i'm still not moving on.
you're still the reason to everything that i do.
i wonder why.

sian ah!

complications.

guard duty tmr.
zz lah.

friday night burnt
no more TGIF
bah.

off to bed. =/
nights




living in resilence.

MC over lo.

just came back from running.
i ran 9mins!
for 4.5 rounds. lol
really no energy run. =/ booo

guard duty coming sat. sian ah~




i hate how im feeling right now.
not physically.

girl, it's you that im missing right now.

gonna be a pretty long post. haha

had half day off last fri.
reached home at around 11+ then slacked till 3+.

went cwp to meet a prudential consultant to do a "financial analysis".
had a 50mins talk with her, somehow managed to convince her in why i didnt wan to take up the saving plan.

but then i felt bad lah. frankly speaking, if i had more NS allowance i'd take up the plan.
afterall it's a 2 way thing. in the long run, i dun get to lose anything, it just helps me to save money with a higher interest rate, and she get to earn off the commisions also.

after havng a talk with her, i realise it's not an easy job for them.
they earn solely on commisions. no basic pay.
then she was saying something like, at least you still have parents to support you, i don't have.
for that moment i was speechless for quite awhile.

she looked quite young, 25-27 like that. and already supporting the whole family already, 1 younger bro and 1 younger sis who are still studying.

when she asked me for my friend's contact that she can find, i was quite reluctant to give lah. i would help her but its not v nice to give without their permission also. so i gave her tk's contact instead. beside its easier to explain things to tk.

it's really not easy for a girl to be thick-skinned to ask ppl for their friend's number so she can try their luck on them to earn some money.
in addition normal people's impression on those policy consultant aint v good.
they still gotta bear with ppl's attitude towards them and smile.

i guess it's not that hard to just say no politely and smile to them instead of shunning off and giving sacarstic remarks isnt it. =/
they're just trying to earn a living.


anyway, went bb to find jolyn. like finally, after so long of not seeing her.
though its only for a really short while. she's still as crazy & cute as ever. haha.

went all the way to raffles after that to pass jessica my old phone.
came home, rest, rot till yesterday, had bbq at night, and that's when fever decided to catch up with me.

was already not feeling well for the past few days, only until ytd then the fever came.
vomitted in the middle of the night. been a really long time since i've last vomitted. haha. =x

anyway, had 2 days mc with effect from monday. cant go out. bah. boring

and my bro clearing leave now. after his leave = ORD already. #$%^&*
1 year 7months more to go for me!
so near yet so far. booo.







a pact and an assurance, we can go miles.

草戒指在手中，像句点的沉默
明天，以后， 愛变成了问候。

tk go die pls. thanks

sick man on the run!

went to download maple private server to 'play for fun'
its a super unwise decision lah.
got addicted to it, played till 8am ytd, then woke up at 5pm.

tmr gotta be up at 515. going arc again.
and here i am blogging at this time of the day coz i cant sleep. @#$%^&

been a week+ since i ran.
instructor on leave for a week. which means we also wont run for week. oops.

wanted to go run yesterday 1. but somehow somewhat, i went to eat instead of running.
=/

next week monday no run, wed off, fri no run again.
that will be 2 weeks of no running. at this rate confirm fat.

just came back not long ago from town.
met up with tk, jay, gordan, weechong, kenneth, pinto, liping and some of their friends.
then go ktv at dynasty dunno what 1. damn cheap. 3hrs only 8bucks. + 1 mini cup of milo. haha.

had sakae after that. took us a good 1hr to find that sakae. not bad right. lol
eat eat eat and eat.
tmr die also must go run.

too many things to buy.
too little money. bah.






a word summarizes how i felt whenever i think back.