i've never like to share my personal life with my family members.
why?

it's not because i don't have a happy family,
i have a perfect family. not much of serious issues going on in between.
my dad don't smoke/gamble. everyone has an upright job.
they don't throw temper at you by beating you up.

as for financial wise, we may not be rich, but you don't see us fighting/arguing over assets or money.

it's just something to do with my attitude/character.


my dad's willing to do anything for us, be it sending us to work when we're late despite him not getting enough sleep and still have to work later part in the day.
fearing that we may starve.

just that his temper isn't that good. and he can't handle situations that well cause of his short-tempered-ness.


my mum is over-concerned about me. as im full of illness since young. but cause she's concerned over the most trival matter/action that i show daily, a fear grows in me. which is not letting her know regardless of what happen to me.
it's not because i don't respect her, but the fear for her worries.

my sisters and brother are nice to me as well.
same thing, temper.
i'm not saying my temper is good. equally bad i guess. but at least its my own temper that im facing, not others.


i've been spoon-fed too much.

i really don't want ppl to worry for my own stuffs. if i tell them they'll be questioning me all the time.
which is why i'm always keeping things to myself.

i'm not some1 who's good in handling situations, but i can't possibly turn to my friends all the time. be it your bestfriend, someday they'll get sick of your complaints.

afterall at the end of the day, it's still up to us to make the decision.
besides, i'm already 21. old enough to handle my own problems.

be it a wrong decision, i'd rather face the music and learn it the hard way.


the reason why i decided to change my url, is cause my sisters reads my blog.
and to my dearest cousin, i trust u enough hor.