it's not the presents that i want to see
it's not the hugs and kisses that i want to get
it's no longer about the number of time we get to meet
it's no longer about the amount of time we get to spend together
neither do i want you to make it up to me

perhaps, i'm no longer in the position to ask for anything.


up till now, i still don't know what happened.
what is it that i've done to deserve such treatments.

all those sms-es you've sent me, all those promises you made in the cards, and all the posts.
i trusted you.
and i know, even if we're to find fault in anyone, you won't be the only one who's at fault.
it's never one person's fault.

believe me, sorry is the last word that i will ever want to hear from you.
it's never the sorry that i wanted to hear, its the story behind.

the message i left for you that day, it's not that i'm expecting things to be as sweet as we were. i understand things tend to fade off over time.
but i just refuse to accept the fact that all these has to take place this fast.

all i wish for now, is for us to be like how we used to be.


that thursday when i met you, i was as good as invisible.
i spent days thinking of what have i done wrong.
thinking back of the things i've done, looking through the things i've said.
and still couldn't figure out what went wrong.

i admit, i don't understand you well.
but as far as i understand about you, you're someone who won't sound out your problems.
on the appearance you're one strong girl, but deep inside, your heart is as fragile as a glass.

i don't care who you are, for i love you for who you are.
i don't care what you've done, for im more than willing to forgive you for everything you did.


i miss those days.
what happened between us?
why am i being treated just like a normal friend now?

if the fault lies in me, give me a chance to atone for those mistakes, will you?

please, i can take anything, but lies.

it hurts.