dreamer's paradise.

2010-01-18T21:04:00.001+08:00

moved back to my old blogspot.
http://falsifiedtruth.blogspot.com

=)

2009-08-27T22:45:00.001+08:00

great. it died once again. -.- back to livejournal.

2009-08-26T23:55:00.003+08:00

just when i changed over to livejournal for the time being, somehow i am able to post again.
...

2009-08-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

http://deliriouskid.livejournal.com

2009-08-11T17:14:00.001+08:00

sometimes..

2009-08-09T06:05:00.000+08:00

just got back.
damn tiring.

2009-08-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

watched GI Joe.

not bad.
4/5

haha.
the technologies are pretty cool.
but too cool to be realistic. great graphic.

going out for night cycling. wont be back tonight. hurray.
hoho. byeeee

2009-08-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

long weekend. hurray.

but im bored to the max.
...

been ages since i've last touched a basketball.
weekends nowadays only eat eat eat and eat.

bball pls.

2009-08-05T13:02:00.003+08:00

just my luck.
whatever.

2009-08-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

i seriously dunno what's on my mind.
just because someone is making mistake frequently doesnt make me right all the time.

who do i think i am?
im just a man, its only right for me to do more.
it wont kill.
what right do i have to lose my anger?

we've been given too much privileges and taking them for granted.
i don't deserve them.

im losing myself.
unreasonably unreasonable.

2009-08-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

had dinner @ tcc with robinsons colleague ytd.
like ouch.

see the price will make you feel like sitting down and just drink their plain water. -_-

after that went to find eugene, adeline, christina and some of his classmates at the open theatre outside esplanade. sit there chit chat abit then went home already.

as for today.. basically did nothing.
ha.
didnt feel like doing anything.

gotta go camp again tmr. argh.
why does it feel so fast when you're enjoying. =/
sigh.

at times, i really dun feel like staying at home.

2009-08-01T01:23:00.001+08:00

as usual, im sleepy yet don't feel like sleeping at all.

2009-07-31T13:18:00.001+08:00

life sucks.

or it is just me?

2009-07-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

i believe in retribution.

but we don't do stuffs which may hurt people not because we are afraid of retribution, but logically it aint right isnt it. if we do just because we don't want to have retribution then it would defeat the purpose totally.

hmm.

2009-07-30T19:21:00.001+08:00

zzzzzz

2009-07-26T20:26:00.001+08:00

took off tomorrow. long weekend. yay

2009-07-26T06:17:00.001+08:00

goodnights

2009-07-26T00:58:00.004+08:00

went to 1 of my staff's baby girl's birthday.
after that went to meet some pri sch friend to do some catching up as 1 of them just came back from oversea recently.

life's getting more and more mono.
friends come and go.
people whom you may be talking happily to today may just turn into a hi-bye friend tomorrow.
that's life i guess.

or perhaps its because i didn't cherish friends.
i don't know.

i'm definitely not a good friend.

it's only when things happen on you then you'll learn to put yourself into other people's shoe and think.

2009-07-21T17:25:00.001+08:00

no activation! haha. *phew*

2009-07-16T11:35:00.002+08:00

damn lot of things left undone. damn sian. argh.

- yet to pack my field pack item, has to pack it by today then buy the things i dont have by tmr.
need helmet and lbv everything.

- need to clock 3 more suggestions by this week.

- got even this fri. attendance compulsory. ends at 930pm. like wth. its friday night. -.-

hais.

2009-07-15T20:34:00.001+08:00

had a farewell treat from the regulars @ marina mandarin hotel.
its a buffet, 38+++/pax. damn exp.

hopefully will receive the photos on facebook soon. haha.

POS tmr. gotta go early to open up the workshop again. bah.

2009-07-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

ORD lo!

...
i wish.
1 year 3 months 9 days to go.

sian.

2009-07-12T02:18:00.002+08:00

somehow somewhat, eugene's hair attracts bee.

and we nearly got stung by bees cause of that.

...

2009-07-11T22:50:00.001+08:00

duty's over. yay.
feels good to be on your own bed. haha

just had dinner with eugene and im hungry again.
..

this is no where near to being healthy. -.-

don't be obliged to.

2009-07-09T21:02:00.001+08:00

11 rounds
11 pull-ups

+ 11 pieces of chicken.

... well that pretty much made my run go down the drain.
thats for being a glutton. oh well.

tmr duty. argh

2009-07-09T13:03:00.001+08:00

i should stop my unhealthy lifestyle.

2009-07-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

2 more days till duty. sigh.

going back camp tmr. =(

2009-07-08T09:01:00.001+08:00

3 days off over soon.
time flies. sad.

anyway, thanks angelin for being nice enough to keep me occupied. haha

2009-07-07T23:48:00.001+08:00

for every start, there's an end.
nothing last forever.

that include friends i suppose?

2009-07-07T22:36:00.001+08:00

sian

2009-07-06T23:20:00.001+08:00

lost.

2009-07-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

contradicting me.
=/

2009-07-04T16:22:00.001+08:00

i'm suffering from pro-duty syndrome.
grr

2009-07-04T00:13:00.001+08:00

some things will be better if nothing was said.

2009-07-02T12:57:00.004+08:00

in camp right now. haha.

3 days off for coming mon-wed. hoho.
duty on 10th july though. dunno how to do. die

signing off. haha. byeee.

not even close.

2009-07-01T15:57:00.001+08:00

half day off. yay

2009-06-30T22:31:00.002+08:00

paraded,
listened to lectures,
played card games,
sang,
pooled,
homed.

well that pretty much summarized my day. haha.

CO parade tomorrow.
hopefully can helpout at refreshments so i won't have to go for the parade. ;x

insignificance.

2009-06-28T17:51:00.002+08:00

"always think before we make a speak"
easy said.

there's something which i gotta admit, i've changed alot.
i'm becoming someone else,
to the extend whereby i don't even know who i am now.

i agree that people do change, but this kind of change is definitely the last that i would want to see in me.

i know i've offended quite a number of people, and there's no point apologising after that.

i just don't want to remain jovial after offending people and getting away as if nothing has happened.

in any case,
sorry.

2009-06-23T22:28:00.002+08:00

towards certain things, i really wish i was wrong.
please tell me i've being a paranoid.

2009-06-23T22:13:00.001+08:00

not as simple

2009-06-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

how far are you willing to go for your loved ones?

2009-06-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

as much as i wish to read people's mind, i need to know what's on my mind.

2009-06-21T14:07:00.001+08:00

Channel NewsAsia - Saturday, June 20

SINGAPORE : The US military is tracking a North Korean ship that media reports said is heading for Singapore.

The Kang Nam departed from a port in North Korea on Wednesday and is suspected of carrying weaponry, missile parts or nuclear material.

Responding to media queries, Singapore’s Foreign Ministry said Singapore takes seriously the proliferation of weapons of mass destruction and if the allegation is true, the ministry said Singapore will act appropriately.

The Kang Nam is the first vessel to be tracked under new UN sanctions passed last week which bans shipments of arms and nuclear and missile technology to and from North Korea.

2009-06-21T04:08:00.001+08:00

yawns

the special someone.

2009-06-17T19:39:00.005+08:00

ever lost a special friend?
well i did.

just few months back we're as close as ever, often mistook as couple.
today we're as good as strangers.

the tide changed overnight.
and i was the cause of it.

she had commitments.
i didn't want to complicate things for her and thus distance myself from her.
she didn't like it, i insisted. a one-sided thing.

friends come and go, but for some reason, she left a really deep impression in me.
yeap i miss her.
i miss the times when we're still close.
the fun and laughters.

despite all the despites,
one thing for sure, we will never be as close ever again.

2009-06-16T23:58:00.003+08:00

well well well.

the wonder of human thoughts,
the power of delusion.

2009-06-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

hmm

2009-06-15T19:00:00.002+08:00

damn late for camp today. 745 need reach i 730 then wake up. haha
end up have to get my dad to fetch me to camp.
could have gotten extras. lucky my staff kind enough to let me off.

imagine at places like buona vista.. i gg.

and someone is damn happy about it. kns

2009-06-12T09:08:00.002+08:00

i think im missing something.. girl im missing you.

2009-06-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

just gotten new uniform yesterday. it didn't look as bad i think. maybe it's because im used to seeing it in camp already. haha

2009-06-11T22:00:00.003+08:00

bah

2009-06-10T17:36:00.001+08:00

im hungry. =(

2009-06-09T00:51:00.001+08:00

i've got a secret which i believe all of us will be very interested in.
it's payday tmr!

my 1st LCP pay. $20 pay increment. like yay.

2009-06-08T00:19:00.001+08:00

i can't believe me and tk actually spent 90+ bucks on fish&co today.

eugene next treat on u hor.

2009-06-07T23:34:00.001+08:00

LOL

2009-06-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

it's a kind of barrier.

2009-06-06T18:09:00.000+08:00

im getting lazy to blog.

and i'll be staying in soon.
hurray

2009-06-02T00:52:00.001+08:00

the people whom i'm working with everyday.

that's about all of them except for a few i guess.

2009-06-01T17:54:00.003+08:00

sakura this friday anyone?

pay day nxt wed. the day that every nsf has been waiting for.

2009-06-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

fatigue party once again.

fatigue party = non-job related annoymous stuffs. =/

2009-05-30T21:35:00.003+08:00

hungry

2009-05-30T21:35:00.001+08:00

i'm

2009-05-30T21:30:00.003+08:00

no?

2009-05-30T21:30:00.001+08:00

yes?

2009-05-30T21:29:00.002+08:00

dinner anyone?

2009-05-30T21:29:00.001+08:00

boring

2009-05-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

...

2009-05-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

i've never like to share my personal life with my family members.
why?

it's not because i don't have a happy family,
i have a perfect family. not much of serious issues going on in between.
my dad don't smoke/gamble. everyone has an upright job.
they don't throw temper at you by beating you up.

as for financial wise, we may not be rich, but you don't see us fighting/arguing over assets or money.

it's just something to do with my attitude/character.

my dad's willing to do anything for us, be it sending us to work when we're late despite him not getting enough sleep and still have to work later part in the day.
fearing that we may starve.

just that his temper isn't that good. and he can't handle situations that well cause of his short-tempered-ness.

my mum is over-concerned about me. as im full of illness since young. but cause she's concerned over the most trival matter/action that i show daily, a fear grows in me. which is not letting her know regardless of what happen to me.
it's not because i don't respect her, but the fear for her worries.

my sisters and brother are nice to me as well.
same thing, temper.
i'm not saying my temper is good. equally bad i guess. but at least its my own temper that im facing, not others.

i've been spoon-fed too much.

i really don't want ppl to worry for my own stuffs. if i tell them they'll be questioning me all the time.
which is why i'm always keeping things to myself.

i'm not some1 who's good in handling situations, but i can't possibly turn to my friends all the time. be it your bestfriend, someday they'll get sick of your complaints.

afterall at the end of the day, it's still up to us to make the decision.
besides, i'm already 21. old enough to handle my own problems.

be it a wrong decision, i'd rather face the music and learn it the hard way.

the reason why i decided to change my url, is cause my sisters reads my blog.
and to my dearest cousin, i trust u enough hor.

2009-05-24T04:12:00.002+08:00

like always,
the simplest gesture can make you realise things you never did.

perhaps i shouldn't be even bothered by someone who don't even bother.
and please don't pretend that you actually cares.
sorry but i don't deserve it.

2009-05-24T03:25:00.001+08:00

i hate it when people say 1 thing and does another.

=/

2009-05-23T05:50:00.001+08:00

im bored to death.

zzzzz

2009-05-23T02:25:00.003+08:00

those were the days.

i wish i could go back to poly life.

2009-05-20T19:11:00.003+08:00

though it has been for years,
to my amaze, she's still the one who motivated me.

and even though we don't even talk now.
when we're still good friends months back.

it's only a second of flashbacks.

2009-05-19T23:19:00.001+08:00

日久见人心

but we often receive the verdict from people even before we were given the time to know each other better.

2009-05-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

a place with nobody but me.

away from the complications.

2009-05-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

and im super full now.
feeling damn uneasy.
sian

can i get a mc for that?

2009-05-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

i want to change.
to be someone better than who i am now.

learning to look at things positively,
learning to change my attitude,
learning to be more hardworking.

2009-05-18T00:07:00.001+08:00

too used to night life.

2009-05-17T18:50:00.003+08:00

i really don't like the way i'm being treated like a kid when i'm at home just because i'm the youngest in the family.

i'm already 21. it's about time i bear all the responsibilty myself for the things i've done.

2009-05-16T02:33:00.001+08:00

i will not let games affect my life anymore.

this is a pact to myself.

perhaps tk was right.
i just lack of motivation to the things i do.

2009-05-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

both uni's rejection letter came. =/
what a morale booster.

sometimes i seriously wonder what am i good at.
super bad temper
character wise also sucks
result also cmi

not even a single achievement at this age.
still stucked in ns not being able to do anything.

what am i even living for?

i see no future in me at all.

no it ain't anybody's fault.
i have only myself to blame.

2009-05-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

whenever people make a negative comment on foreigners like china people or any others, we all agrees without a 2nd word.

but when it comes to singaporean, how many of us will agree?
whenever a negative comment is made, be it the smallest one, they kick a big fuss out of it.

yeap singapore is 1 of the safest country to live in as compared to the other chaotic countries.
we can just walk on the streets without having to worry about the safety of our loved ones.
we should be lucky that we're born here.

but the people..
i dont feel like elaborating already. lazy. haha

just my 2cents.

2009-05-13T22:44:00.003+08:00

i hate this kind of on and off feeling.

its something which nobody understands.

2009-05-13T19:25:00.003+08:00

a little debate going on.

struggling to break free. wish me luck.

2009-05-12T22:55:00.003+08:00

finally. the rejection letter came.

2009-05-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

after 6months of running around outside, they finally decided to bring us back to cage.

2009-05-11T04:21:00.015+08:00

random.

2009-05-11T04:21:00.014+08:00

bored.

2009-05-11T04:21:00.013+08:00

go sleep lo. nights

2009-05-11T04:21:00.012+08:00

and i'm going to be super poor this month again.

it's only paper cut deep.

2009-05-10T13:34:00.003+08:00

true enough, soon enough.

2009-05-10T02:35:00.003+08:00

2009-05-09T20:27:00.003+08:00

1 more day till payday!
haha

there's a hokkien saying:
wu zho bo zho dan zhap ho~

2009-05-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

zzz screw the weather

2009-05-07T19:46:00.003+08:00

SAF isnt a bad place actually. its the people.

we did our best in everything we were asked to do,
even things which isnt even within our job scope,
staying back waiting for the regulars to finish with their stuffs till as late as 7,
and them leaving 1st sometimes whereas we have to stay to lock up the place for them.

we didnt even complain.

but getting told off for the most trival thing such as going lunch at wrong timing,
instead of going from 12-1, we went from 1230-130.

seriously.

wishing that we dont have to help them, we cant.
this is the only thing which can be found in SAF =/

more good years ahead.

2009-05-06T21:26:00.003+08:00

humans are never satisfied.
they will never be.
=/

and i actually sprained my back while cooling down.
cant even bend now. -.-

2009-05-05T19:34:00.003+08:00

im okay with being just a friend.
but if you're trying to feign, i'm sorry but it won't work for someone who has already seen through you.

2009-05-05T18:59:00.003+08:00

5 more days till payday!
i seriously wonder where all my money went for the last 2 months.
0 savings! -.-

2009-05-04T00:08:00.003+08:00

i just realised both my legs has got more than 5 blue-blacks.
..

2009-05-03T01:51:00.003+08:00

had fun feeding the mosquitoes.